it just keep sinking.

Do you remember?
I'd told you once.

Yes. It was this picture again, if you realised. Before it got started, i thought this path is gonna be an extremely long one. Longer then i could ever expect. More beautiful than any pretty sceneries i've seen before, or more perfect than how perfect i wanted it to be. Still, it all ended up so incrediablely, so imperfect and so harmful. This path was so short, so fragile. Probably because we don't hold on really tightly and overly confident. Too many people around and made us lost along the way. Well, idk. Maybe its all never meant to be.
So what if i wanted it all back so much? It can never will, again.
All those words which are never meant for me, never once. Was all belongs to somebody else. And all those tears was just a joke to you. Missing you was once a routine, a must, an happiness. Now, people might think that was a seriously stupidity.

Is this really enough for me to grow up? Are these coming to a stop, are you gonna be hers or others?

Hey yo! It's fun today.

How i wished that i didn't see that.

The caused of mood changed.

Sometimes, some lil'minor stuff allows you to see how a person really are.
Words were just appearance, like looks. But time prove better than everything.
People come and go, so do you.
And you, how would you define friends?
(:

i'm going insane.

I think i'm going crazy soon after. You might think that i'm really insane if you were to know what i was and have been doing. I've got no idea why am i doing sucha hilarious act. I just go on reading and reading, without stopping. Okay, i shall get out of here now.

myohmy.

i'm feeling so unhappy now :(

because,

• i've yet to collect my pay (but soon already :D)
• my hair is in a really bad condition
• i'm still so distanced towards my goals
• my complexion is even sucker now
• i'm growing wider day by day
• i don't have alot of dates
• i'm feeling so bored everyday
• i'm not doing any sports recently

Okay, this is really random.

POOL!

That was taken when i went over to sister's place for steamboat, with her secondary school classmates. Jayden have grown alot and even cuter now (: And i actually had a picture with him too, but i didn't post it cause i looked disgusting there. Lol

No monday blue cause work was cancelled last minute and i went out a few hours to have fun. I also went to pay my school fees in the afternoon, with mummy. Which means, school is starting soon. And i seriously wished that my lappy will be here soon, please.

Anyway,i want a new bag pack!
Any kind soul is free to accompany me out to get one?

:D

I'm turning in now.

Ciao!

i insisted on missing you (:

17again!

Dinner and movie were both nice.

Caught 17again for just one purpose.

haha.

Anyway, ZacEfon is hot!

But Xuehong said he's even hotter!

hahaha :D

A second chance gave a clearer view.

And now, your mind was cleared enough.

While i seriously regretted being so kpo you know.

I think all were just sympathy. Don't act anymore.

溏心風暴之家好月圓

This is for you,baby.

you talk to me
you speak with me
don't sink before you rise baby
don't fade away
you hesitate
you seem to wait
for all the time we had
feels like a world away
who's to say
we'll be ok
we're gonna make it through the night
don't wanna wake up in this state
i just want us both to smile
cause we're the same
and i know that we'll never change
look i bought your favourite ice cream
i don't wanna see it melt away
if you walk out now
i don't know if we're gonna be the same
baby just talk with me
cause i want you to stay here with me
i want you to stay here with me

Just a wish, just a dream -

Really impossible for now?

Label: Talk to me.

有种拥有，叫做放手。- Maybe that was right.

Did i say i saw the girls at topone when i'm with classmates? It was really coincidentally, they're just beside us. And i ran around to have fun. Lol :D

Oh well, it's pictures now. Enjoy.

是我照成了这一切。失去的爱，也许再也会不来。而它将是我永远的遗憾与伤痛。
): 没有了你，我又怎么开心得起来。

i'm sick! whathell?!? -,-

Oh! my oh my.

I spent a bomb today, just in one shop. Lol! Anyway, i met up bestie today and we went bugis for some shopping, catching ups, lunch and dinner. We're having a splendid time chattings, buying and keep buying. Haha. Actually, we didnt buy alot.

and i can't believe that i still can shopped so happily when i'm so unwell. Hahaha, i'd diarrohea this morning and a severe headache after that. But i still went for the date we all have for every wednesday. Haha, it's all about macpherson primary today! (:

Kay, i'm gonna swallow all those disgusting medicine now and turn in!

Lol, goodnight world.

iwillbemissingyou!!

<br>

I will post pictures tomorrow, fastest!

Tags Replies!

Winnie: Yea! Babies are all way too adorable if they don't cry! Haha.

Elinkwan: Haha, yayaya!

Jj: Haha, yaya! That's it! :D And yea, kawaii nehzzzzz! LOL

Kelvin: I dyed brown. But its like not so obvious unless i'm under the light. And haha, i dont know whats with the look of the Baby. Lastly, thanks alot alot to you and ryl for the help. The lappy will be loved! Omg! :D

BabyJayden!

BabyJayden is adorable too :D

Got some pictures of him from Brother-in-law just now.

And the last picture is BabyKayzel kissing him. Lol
Kayzel is also an adorable lil'girl (:

Okay, i'd more pictures taken on darl's birthday celebration.
I'll post everything up when i got all of them.

Label: istillloveyou.

shit this.

Since when did i?

What the fuck is this? -.-

hope everybody have a great start in school today (:

I still have to wait for weeks.

and today, i got my hair dyed.

lol, i hate the duration seriously -.-

Kay, gotta go now.

bye!

great day.

I don't want to remember how she looks. Don't want to remember how painful that was. Don't want to remember how much effort you've put in.

Don't want to remember that dream. Definitely, don't want it to be true either.

I don't want, don't want. I really doesn't want!

Tell me, it's not gonna happen.

Oh man, why am i feeling scared about that?

what the fuck is this?

I'm feeling happy, but not totally somehow. But still, i'm glad that it turns out to be an excellent outcome after all the worries we've been having (:

Oh wells. I took cab twice today -.- Damn shit, i shouldn't have boarded up. Arh, twice somemore. And it cost me slightly alil'more than bus fare only cause now i've got to enjoy the adult fare again. Yea, "enjoy again." Lol, my god.

Anyway, we're all out to give darl a lil' celebration in advance. Hah, she's turning twenty in two days! :D We went for her all time favourite, singing session at topone and had an healthy dinner at the soup spoon after that. Then, we'd a really long walk to suntec and crossed this express way with fear. Lol, its the first time doing it in my whole of 20years. Okay, its really really scary but a lil' fun too. Thankfully, i didnt die there. Lol! Aftermath, we slacked at starbucks till 11 and girls headed home while the guys left early for some dota at lan shop.

Alright, i'm so tired today also. In fact, i think i'm blogging that i'm tired everyday leh. Ohmy. Tell me how, how to turn in earlier? -.-

她的眼泪让你心疼，哪我的呢？

你不想看见她不开心，就很像看见我难过吗？

你没有错，错的是我。是我咎由自取爱上了你。

I'm turning in now.

i miss you ):

I caught Sniper today with Xiaode at Ceni. It's nice but i expected more! Haha, anyway those shooters were all looking cool when they were aiming and shooting. Haha. If i'm like them, that would be really cool please and i will shoot all of you down! Heh! :x

Oh wells, movie,lunch and walks made me feel so tired now. And the game we'd with that machine at cathy cost a bomb. Lol, but still i think we're happy that we got a gift at last. And xiaode was also having a hard time getting it.

(: oh yes. I'm gonna enjoy tomorrow after my work. And i'm looking forward to the healthy dinner. I love the soup there :D

For now, goodnight world.

I felt pain, so pain to see you with her, being so happy with her. I can never see you smiling so happily when we're together. I hope you're happy and be like this for the rest of your life. Also wish that our decision was right and lead you to an happier life. I think my love for you would take years to fade. I don't know how long it would take, but i will always be hoping for miracles. I will wait, probably. I hope you wouldn't forget about me, about us and i will always be there if you happens to need someone.

Label: Things will never gonna be changing.

i just felt like.

I just got this urge to blog but i've forgotten what i actually wanted to write. Anyway, i met up some old friends after work yesterday, for dinner. Had a great time laughing, chatting, teasing and catching up with each other. We even continued over the phone after we got home.

Its good to hear some shocking news sometimes and i definitely support you girl (: Well, the night was great actually but the tease got me a lil'ache somehow. Maybe i could take it but yea, not totally. It would be a lie if i'm telling you i'd no more feelings or i've forgotten (:

Mix feelings came about always and i'd a strong feelings that both of you may got together, which is what i dont wish to see. The love i'd for you have grown so strong since the last break up and how am i suppose to forget now? No matter how alright i'm infront of everybody, it was definitely an act. And i dont see a need to have anymore rants to be seen cause you'll never be back again. Your heart is gone, your feelings have faded like always. It was something which i can never get it back. You're someone whom i love most, but my return was your betray. Could you even be back again with the loving me whole-heartedly intention instead? Sigh.

Label: The heart will decides.

excited.

Finally this time, mummy didnt goes like *&^%$#%##!##%$% you see. So so so, i'm gonna get it done soon :D Hehe!

Now, i really needa save up. I've been spending all that i've earned and therefore i'm short of so much, you see. Arh, this has lead to mission incomplete. Haha.

Okay, i will make it successful in everything!

i'm sorry for being so moody in the previous post. I know that i've promised not to be like this anymore but i just... tsk, okay i'm trying. Really hard to make it possible. I hope it don't take very long to heal.

我并不勇敢。

我没有权利阻止，也没必要讨厌。
可是，我没有办法让自己觉得不痛。
只能说，我不可能在装着很勇敢。

但是，我知道我的感觉不会错。
事情的结果已经是众所周知了。

我不是你想像那么勇敢。

Speech and drama, not my forte.

ohmyohmy.

At that point of time, i wished i was deaf. Yes please, i do feel kinda affected by it which i can't figure out why. Maybe everything hasn't been changing when i think it've changed. In short, prediction was never always right but many times, it do hit jackpot too.

Wellwell, on a happier note. My weekends wasn't a waste afterall yea. Haha. I caught Fast&Furious 4 with Darl and Jj at the new shopping mall near BugisJunction :D The mall is huge but empty and movie was thumbs up! Okay, at least i love it.

Anyway, i felt very unwell now.

I could feel the giddness&pain within and the feeling of floating.

Its just the first day and i'm dying.

(: full month.

I used to say a lot of sorries. Each time i feel that i was at fault, i would simply mentioned it. And i actually didnt realised how meaningless a word sorry got when it has been mention too many times. Till now, i finally aware of it.

Therefore, i hate sorry now. Okay, i dont feel good now actually. And i also don't wish to type everything out here, anymore. Arh! I'm not going to do any elaborations here anymore lah.

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, tsk.

Anyway, it's BabyJayden's full month celebration today. Food were alright but isn't enough. During late evening, i went window shopping with bestie @ jurong point, we'd subway for dinner :D And that one foot of bread taste really delicious.

Okay, i got to sleep and dream now. Then look forward to my date tomorrow :D
Gooodnight!

Label: I think i'm jealous -.-
Fuck!

surprise? lol.

Omfg.

this is so unbelieveable.

Anyway, i felt a quite happy in some ways. At least, being neutral is much more better always! ;D Heh, now i'm awaiting for more meet ups with different cliques. Haha.

Okay. I've nothing more to type now cause some things i don't wish to elaborate, you see. So it shall just end here (:

I found him! But omg, i'd forgotten his name. Lol!

Babies! - Friendship!

I'd some photos of babyKarl! He's way too adorable :D
And i'll show you guys babyJayden's after his full month celebration!

If you're gonna dislike me or hate me, please go ahead. I don't force people (: Well, if things really get worst, isn't what i wanted either, i swear. Friendship takes time to build up the trust.

Label: I shall take back my words o.o

sick of it.

My god. Except for hello kitty, i hate all cats. And yes, whatever cats you could think of please. I actually dont understand why is there a need for you to do this? Okay, maybe i should feel honoured and maybe i really have got style and thats why -.- Yea, oh maybe la maybe.

Alright, lets just put all this turning off issue aside.

I met up with yetpheng&sufen to have lunch today. We had a great time catching up with each other and had delicious dessert made by auntie. :D Also, congrats to Nyp who got into Nyp! Lols,an very cool combination yea!

Heh! :P

this is crazy.

Yay! I've no work tomorrow :D Was too tired yesterday and i slept almost the whole of today. And i felt really drowsy after i woke up from the sleep. Haha, and i think i'm gonna put on weight already. I'd been eating alot these days and i'd an heavy supper yesterday night before i go to bed. Lol, how sinful.

Well, movies anyone?

(: i'll be willing to join if i'm free!

I can't believe this!

Okay, actually to be frank. I seriously cannot stand this kinda act.

Aint that too obvious? But nevermind, i shall let this issue rest with slience.

it's different now anyway :D

I've some words to say! But i don't know how to phrase it.

So, will leave it for the next post alright!

(: Goodnight love, i'm turning in. Yea, soon i hope.

Oh-so-shiok.

:D It was a laughing out loud session for today. Haha, the pretty good combination of this outing had made my day! Heh. The only saddening thing was that we missed out our macdonalds breakfast.

Lol, don't know why. We were suppose to have breakfast together at Mac. But five of us somehow totally forgotten about it. Stayed at tampines for at least an hour or more and we were doing nothing. Lol! We then headed down to our destination and get everything done there. After things were all completely done, then we remember about our Mac breakfast. Ohmy, how blur yea.

We then went for branch, a very late one, nearby. (: and we went dover first before having a long chat and a good time throwing out all the unhappiness at bugis.

Kay, whatever it is. The day was great and filled with laughs.

We'd common ideas, common thoughts and all of us were humorous people!

Haha, and dirty too! Especially the one who wore yellow today? =X

Okay, please dont scold me or hit me (when you see me) after you've seen this.

:D

Yay, it's pictures time now! :D

Bbq@ PasirRis && Jj's belated big day!

On wheels @ EastCoast on Friday!

P.S: okay, i know i looked short in all these pictures! Lol!

Yawns

Hey yo!

Looks like i've been updating regularly, and have changed a new playlist too! No more sentimental songs anymore, hah. Lets cheer together!

Well, i've been busying with events recently and i've got more during this coming week. I'm pretty looking forward to all the delicious food im gonna be having during those meet ups! :D

But I'm feeling really tired these days, seriously. I've been waking up damn early and turning in really late. Ohmy, why like that? ): My pimples are all popping out one by one and my skin is getting really bad too. Okay, it's really gonna thanks to the sun. Haha.

Anyway, i've uploaded all the pictures which i'm suppose to. If you see me online, do nudge me for pictures alright! :D

please -,-

oh come on, be realistic enough.

The mind, the mouth belongs to oneself. No matter what comes out from them, i don't see a point to believe them totally. And i dont see a reason why is it so trustable? So what if they're your kin? I would rather choose to think that everybody were lying just like having the april fool game daily-365days, non stopping. Nobody would be honest all the time please. Everybody will lie automatically when they feels like, or even betrayed, backstabbed. In fact, everybody is selfish and thinks for themselves.

You've got to just trust yourself, alone.

Cause only your heart don't lie to you.

So, forget about trusting ya? i feel that it only causes yourself to be a fool of the day.

And i dont know why i'm not in a good mood. Probably my menus is coming -.-

Oh fuck it.

Suddenly, i miss lemon-flavour lollipops and i miss you.

It should be quite scary, but i'm not as afraid.

no longer care.

I can leave everything aside now, cause nothing else is more important than this.

(:

Been enjoying myself this two days. Got myself off from work and out i go. Left home early and turn in late. Which caused me to be so tired, just like a zombie-soon-to-be. Lol. I met up darl&guangye @ bugis to get jj's belated gift and took train down to pasir ris to meet up the rest. And yea, got bitten by the ants like mad please. But i still had a great time eating those tasty barberque foods & lying to each other. Also, not forgetting to be snapping away. Heh! & i'm sorry classmates, i will post up all the pictures real soon :D

Where as for today, i woke up damn early to have mac breakfast with the group of babes :D We head down to east coast and cycle till our butts got painful, legs got weak and skin got tanned! Lol. This is totally madness i would say, im looking really weird now :D I've got different skin colours and abit discomfort.

Okay, now i shall turn in soon.

Gotta heck everything that happened recently aside and probably forever. We'll see :D

And meanwhile i needa focus and plan.

Goodbye.

Nervous breakdown.

Since things happened twice, i shouldn't be feeling so bad instead right. But why ain't i feeling better in anyways. I hate it when i couldn't get things right and instead got it worst. Things happened too fast and too sudden, like always. Similar issue have repeated more than once. It's way too fucked up to be happening again and again. But everyone would knows that everything were unpredictable & wasn't up to anyone's control. It's all written in the books of life. And you can't change it.

Do you actually remembered how you lectured me the other time. Telling me how horrible he was, how naive i was and how stupid in the way i was handling my friendship and relationship with him. Everything came from you were right, and i should have put it on to you in order to make myself awake. But i didnt. Because of his incident, i accumulated everything up again before i took up this path and made that particular decision. And now, i've realised i was wrong. I shouldn't have put my regret into another problem to allow me creating another regret.

It's a total of two now which couldn't be amend anymore. The only thing i could do is to listen to all of you. Perharp, it will be right this time. And i should let it all go once more. Hopefully, things would get better.

Dont ask me again if i miss him. You wouldnt want to hear my answer. And i really don't want to admit it infront of you. I'll now speak differently from the heart.

Anyway, its 1st april already. I'll be awake as early as possible, i hope. And i'll stick right infront of my computer and start logging in. Hah, i hope to see pretty alphabets. Lol, you know what i mean god. And of cause, best outcome on the 3rd april too. I'd my outing plans, don't ruin it god.

:D Allow me to turn in now, bye!