labour day tomorrow!

Alright, school was sucha boring place to stay in during the day. But with classmates around to be crazy with, it's slightly better. With Jiaying around, it's totally madness! Lols, and Jiaying, i seriously thinks that you're freaking brave yo! hahahahahas!

Was really busy in catching whatever was taught and tests are all coming up next week. Tsk, damn it man. I can just throw my result slip away at the end of my year2 if i'm gonna flunk my upcoming papers. Arh, this is damn stresssful. Oh, my hates.

Nevermind, nevermind. It's labour tomorrow! Yayness because there won't be school. Sadness because there are homeworks and i've to work in the night. Tsk :(

Alright, i'm gonna turn in now.
The medicine is making me drowsy, lols!
And i hope, this fast-come-flu will go off fast too!

GOODBYE!

Labels: Work it out yo! I've got a decision now.

sunday

Well, sunday are always boring.

I actually intended to go orchard to get what i'm suppose to during the noon.

But then, i was really tired that i off my alarm and went back to sleep again.

Anyway, was talking to yang online!
Hahhaas! my best friend who said he love me today! Lols lols!

Don't need to see what was being blurred, just see the most important sentence.
Wahahahahhahas :D
Oh, please click it to have a clearer view!

Haha, see see see !


Okay lah, kinda lame lah.
But anyway this good friend of mine was injured.
So yang, please take really good care okay!
See ya real soon and also, get well soon ^^

wonderful saturday

I remembered that i've got a really really bad dream yesterday? Or, this morning. Can't remember the exact time of it's happening. But then, i know that i cried really badly in that dream. Lol! I woke up and i wondered why will this dream came by.

Anyway, met up xuehong,jianwen and kaisiong for movie this afternoon! Pool session with them before movie starts. By the way, we watched Superhero instead of Definitely,maybe :( But nevermind, it's a nice movie after all. Though that movie was really funny in a very lame way. Lols! After movie, we'd pastamania at ceni and went hmv to get xuehong's earpiece. After we got back to chuplao, we went home changed and i meet jianwen, kaisiong and yongtian to go xuehong's place together. And i think, today's soccer match made ManUtd fans ain't very happy. Hahas! Then, stayed there awhile and i went to ahben's place to meet 宝贝儿，亲爱的 and ahben, of cause. Had steamboat there. And i reached home only at 12.


A picture of myself to end this post. Please don't get sick of my face, lols.
But if you really are getting very sick of it, then press altF4 lo.

Anyway, i didn't get really not okay after seeing him lah.
I'm fine, totally fine (:

Met almost all in the cliques today!
Meeting them up always made my day (:
Except for yang! if you see this,then we shall meet up soon kay!

BYEpeeps!

Labels: What a mini concert for the whole afternoon, lol!

horoscope!

Hey peeps, take a look at what is below.

I find it pretty interesting! Hahas!

牡羊座.衝動第一名，做事後悔第一名，

火氣大第一名，大膽第一名，敢愛敢恨第一名。

金牛座.穩重第一名，節檢第一名，

貪財第一名，可靠第一名，吃苦耐勞第一名。

雙子座.八卦第一名，聰慧第一名，

Crazy第一名，幽默第一名，多話第一名。

巨蟹座.體貼第一名，愛吃第一名，

愛家第一名，孝順第一名，多愁善感第一名。

獅子座.自信第一名，愛現第一名，

要面子第一名，品味第一名，風度第一名。

處女座.細心第一名，挑剃第一名，

愛乾淨第一名，小題大做第一名，吃醋第一名。

天秤座.愛美第一名，猶豫第一名，

懶惰第一名，善辯第一名，公正第一名。

天蠍座.癡情第一名，扮酷第一名，

魅力第一名，冷冰冰第一名，理智第一名。

射手座.貪玩第一名，糊塗第一名，

可愛第一名，勇於嘗試第一名，心無城府第一名。

摩羯座.嚴肅第一名，鎮定第一名，

忍耐第一名，認真第一名，保守第一名。

水瓶座.好奇第一名，好學第一名，

創意第一名，創造力第一名。

雙魚座.心軟第一名，敏感第一名，

多疑第一名，愛作夢第一名，胡思亂想第一名。

madness!

School is becoming so different now! :( Lectures and tutorials are going to drive me crazy soon. I dont like this. Arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I'm just so afraid that i can't make it in the end when we're all graduating. Sigh, to think will only make the thoughts go wild.

Seriously,it was a really bad day for myself today. Three things that happened altogether in a day can be linked up together! Arh! Damn :(

First was him, then her and last her.

Why think, why wonder and why see it.

Okay, time for homework now!

i'm broke now! :(

It's monday again! Well, monday don't totally filled with blue today.

It's better then other days but still it's bad when it reflects (:

School for the day was alright. Nothing much happens other then studying all those boring calculations. Hahas and as usual i was late for class again. Aiya, it always happens on every first lesson of the day! Hahs! ;P

After lesson ended, the cliques from qq went to Junction8 together! We'd a very early dinner over at swensens to celebrate darl's belated birthday (: Presents for her was given in the morning and a cake from swensens to end the day! Hope she enjoy the day.

Then, it's time for all to go home.

Took train home and an incident just happened so coincidentally. Lol! Maybe, it's because guangye was too slow or rather too fast also! Hahas, he was left behind when all of us board up the train. Anyway, damn sorry eh!

And before i go. Boy, it's the first day of school for you.

Hope you've a wonderful class which you will enjoy alot, also find someone you really love there.,maybe? Well, who knows right. Though i dont wish for that, but your happiness is more important than anything else. Still, all the best for everything happens ahead! Best wishes, belovedboy. Love ya always and see ya around i hope.

To add on, happy birthday athena.
Now, goodbye! (:

birthday!

Happy Birthday Darling!

Well well, it's darl's birthday today. And poor darl got to still work for the day, because she's working and having celebrations with family. Therefore, we can't meet her! But still, we went to bugis swensens to look for her. Hahas, she looked really cute with her work's uniforms on. Just like how the girl in diner dash look! :D

Anyway, we met up athena for her birthday celebrations instead. Which falls on the 21april! Right after darl's (: We'd a lil'celebration at tampines's pizzahut. Chocolate cake from four leaves for her and a present from everyone. Yup, headed home at around 9plus. By the time, i'm already feeling damn tiring. But still, met up the usual ones at chuplao for their dinner.

As usual, jianwen was crapping all the way. Stayed for an hour plus and reached home at 12am. Arh, it's pretty sad to see tonight's outcome.

I knew you wouldn't be there when i'm there too.Maybe i'm too paranoid, but i think somehow we're avoiding. Plus, whenever he's there. There will never be me around. I wanted to see you so much but yet there isn't a chance given. Fuck, maybe everything is faded now already. We can't continue, we can't love once again, we wasnt given a chance anymore already. Sigh, i dont know why it started to ache once again now. Ily,bb.

Times up for some catching up of sleeps!
GOOODNIGHT PEEEPS!

satuarday

yah, it's saturday again! Seriously, i dont like saturday because i got to wake up very early on the boring sunday. Tsk :( Anyway, the meet up session with girlfriend was cancelled. Poor girlfriend wasn't feeling well, hope she's feeling better now! (:

Anyway, i met up sister first over at cityhall. Then, we went to marina sq to look for mummmy! (: Stayed at her work place for awhile before we headed to precious thots to get sister's whatever figurings. After collecting,we met brotherinlaw over at bugis after that. Dinning over at MOF!

Well, it's a very short day out but it's filled with warmth (:

Oh, and it's a wrong to have wear my heeels out instead of any other shoes :( Because i walked alot today and my legs are all in the going-to-have-blister condition. Lols! Hopefully, there won't be even one. So, it's slippers day tomorrow!

Alrightyeeee, it's getting late now. Time to sleeeeeeeeeeep peeps!

Goodnight!

and i miss you so (:

so in detailed

Well, it probably explaining alot about that day. See'ing it and knowing it so randomly. Yea, very very random indeed. Somethings, we don't have to know by asking. You know, you can run away but you can't be hiding. Everytime i try to hide, it will just pop out itself and there it goes, the truth may just appeared right in front of me.

(: it's all fated actually.

So now, it's not an incident. You created it and you abandoned it. Your bad is beyond help. Maybe there're still somethings unsaid or unknown. But for what is known now wasn't what i expected. Should i believe it or rather still continue in the trust?

I do felt pain but i dont know what else is there still. And i...sigh,nevermind

Arh, it's not a good day today.

The mind keeps on repeating, and it goes on reminding, reminding and reminding too, during the noon. Now, at night i still.... aiya! Whatever!

I'm feeling tired after the walks at orchard this afternoon. In the end, i couldn't get what i want. Damn it man, i walked so much, alone. And i got nothing back home. Tsk! Waste of time! ): Plus, my shoulder is suffering like hell now :( Reason being was, my very very heavy school bag! Classmates have been saying that i brought golds to school to cause that weight. But arh, i dont know what's the reason that is causing this weight.

Aiya, what a post.

Goodbye now!

cheeeese cake! <3

Yayness!

It's sucha happy day today! School ended early, earliest of the entire week!

Excluding friday,haha!
But still, it's quite late lah! If there isn't care, it'll be so much better! :)

Aiya, that's so impossible alright!


Know what, i've been wanting to have cheesecake so much recently. Even my pm in msn tells it! Hahas, and darl realised it yesterday! :D And, we're chatting in msn but i forgot to print screen it! Anyway, darl said she will buy me cheesecake right after school today! Yah, she really did! We went starbucks with classmates and she really really bought me new york cheesecake! lols!
Thanks darl! That cheese cake was heavenly tasty! (:
Love ya alright! haaas, despite of you loving so many people! =X

Whee, take a look at the cheese cake! Do you feel like having it now too? ^^


Okay, after cakes and coffee session was half way through.
Those guys who actually wanted to play pool but didn't in the end, joined us.
Then, the guys suggested to go 日本村 for their lunch/dinner. Yah, i joined them and was really full after that (: Now, i don't have to take dinner tonight again. lol
After that, took bus home and went to work after changing. Was feeling really tired but still, gotta drag myself to work :( Furthermore,tomorrow's lesson starts at 8am!
Sucha torture can! Arh! :(

My oh my, i felt so broke now and felt so fattening to the foods i've eaten.
But then, i couldn't stop myself from having them all! lols, walau!


Alright, till then.
Goodbye & goodnight peeps!
Have a good sleep tonight all!


Label: 3 more days to darl's birthday! (:

Once again.

Everytime you found out new things, how do you feel?
I felt so wrong whenever i found out something. You know, damn sway.
Why is it all the time? Tsk! Quite pek cek at times, but not point either.

Aiya, forget it. Not the time to sort out all these shits already.
Soon after, everything will be cleared enough to know.

Alright, enough said.
Shall tell you guys how's school during these three days. hahas!

Nothing special actually. Once we're in class, lesson starts and never ends! lols.
The lecturers just talk all they want, non-stop -.-

It's damn boring in class. In short, school are boring now!
But thank god, classmates are not those kind of nerdy. So, we can still fool around together :D

But aiya, i still miss holiday more.
Lets just look forward to the next holidays! lol!

Okay, i dont know what else to continue with.

Goodbye and goodnight peeps!

School reopens!

Alright, i dont need to say much. From my school uniform, everyone will knows that school for me have started again! Actually, for most of all have started school. Except for tp! Tsk! Anyway, First day of school is always tiring and boring. So, i slept damn early yesterday. Hahas,but still i was late for class this morning. Despite of class started as late as 11am!

My oh my, being late has became a habit :(

Yesterday, spent almost half of the day in the lecture room. Then, a very long break before another class starts. Ended at around 3 and back home!

Okay, till then.

Sometimes i do felt a lil'sour. But sometimes i think nothing have went wrong.
Not forgetting, i've no longer feeling so bothered by it. I must admit, somethings still remains.
Though some doesn't, but the chances of making it back never decrease.
But time is needed in everything. Arh, confusion made things even worst.
Worsen than the previous time. Seriously, i hate myself behaving this way. I can no longer see how i used to be.
Damn these fuck shits! :'(
Oh, it's just because you don't understand it all.
Shit you, fuck.
if only, i can heal the pain by my own!

Sometimes, i hate to realise what are not suppose to.
Maybe there is a reason behind it, but i suppose it don't.
I hate it when i realised all are hiding.
Arh,fuck everybody.
):

long long post

Alright, i'm back home after staying at sister's place for the past 2days! (:

Had a great time there, but lacked of too much sleeps!

lol!

I've lotsa pictures to post and also, gonna blog about wed,thurs,fri and sat now!

WEDNESDAY!

xuehong was back from hongkong after about a month! Hahas, most of us missed him of cause. Especially all his brothers, but he just happily enjoyed there till he's happy.

Well, he brought back Jaychou 公仔 for me as the 2nd birthday present!

It's the hongkong edition cause he can't get the limited edition one.

Sucha pity, but still the one he brought back is pretty!

Here, is the picture of it!


Therefore, it means for the night of wednesday, we didn't sleep at all. Except for one.
Nonetheless, it's yang. He just slept on the living room and ignored us. Ya, all he know is to sleep and sleep and sleep! =X
2 pictures of him!

Then, we headed to the market nearby for breakfast as usual.
And that was the day we stayed at the market for the longest time. We kept on snapping pictures together.Then the girls came out with the idea of pictures with different emotions. But of cause, it's the guys that do it and not us! lols. Take a look at the pictures, they looked quite cute actually and funny too. Hahahas.
All pictures taken below!
THURSDAY!
Met bestie at payalebar and we headed to meet sister at jurong east and went to her place together. Spent the night there with bestie and because we couldn't get to sleep, so we had a long chat for the whole night. And we only can get to sleep at the evening.


Well, after all the chats, i realised how much it misses. Furthermore, it's only facing bestie, im able to mention about what have already past. She understands me, i'm sure. She knows i can't but she wishes that i could. But still, she don't force. She don't encourage anything. She just listens and listens. Anyway, thanks for all bestie. The night wasn't lonely with her around (:


Pictures of bestie and i below!

Thursday night, we also went up to look for baby kayzel after our dinner.
She's getting more and more adorable lahs! Hahas. But aiya, which baby don't?
Okays, pictures of her below!
Here, it's the pictures of our foods! We don't buy dinner or breakfast outside.
We (sister,bestie and i) went to the supermarket and bought lotsa food back home.
And we cooked dinner at home on thursday and breakfast at home too, on friday!

FRIDAY!
Called up beloveds but not all are free. So, at last 亲爱的, ben and xuehong came all the way to boonlay to look for me. And we didnt sleep for the night again! We kept on playing cards and chatting for the whole night till 10plus in the morning.
Here's some random pictures!

SATURADAY!
On 10plus in the morning, we went breakfast together with sister at macdonalds. Yup, then while they took train home to catch some sleeps. I went to bishan to meet up the relatives to pray grandma and grandpa and some other relatives. Oh, not forgetting. I fell down again when we were walking to the place where we pray. Damn clumsy! ):
After all praying, went to junction8 with sister,brother and sisterinlaw. Had longjohn for lunch and did some shopping at kiddy palace. Headed back to my place, changed and prepared. Met up 亲爱的,宝贝儿,xuehong and ben to bugis for steamboat!
Sent 宝贝儿 home before all of us headed back to chuplao.
Of cause, at the end of the day. I'm damn freaking tired already. To the extend where i do not have anymore strength to be crazy. Hahas!
Pictures taken are all below!

Well, after the day. Reached home and something happy appeared.
No need me to say. Of cause, it's all because i saw him
But anyway, i didn't have any reaction on the appearance too. But, heart beats really fast (:

SUNDAY!
Today! went to work in the morning and was back home in the afternoon.
And i went straight to bed without eating. Then, there it goes. I slept for the whole afternoon.

Hahas! it's school tomorrow. Everytime this was mention to me, i felt damn sian. Lols, i just don't feel like going schoool. Tsk!

Sigh, anyway. Things aint going the way i want. I don't know how it will be like in the future. I dont know if there still any chances for the both of us. Or rather, is there still hope for anything? I know, sister will be strongly disagree of us getting back together. And i think same goes to brother too. Whenever i remembered how she warned me for not going back, i felt troubled. What if it happens? Sigh. To miss him is a wrong now, to all of them. But still, i find it normal and alright. I knew i can't get over and I really don't know what to do. Sigh, maybe just let nature take course. If we're faded to be together, we will.

some overdued pictures!

Back then. The pictures taken on my birthday with cliques is up!
there are more taken with the girls, but didn't post up.

That's all. Will be back to blog about wednesday,thursday,friday and saturday!
And, more pictures coming up too! Lotsa adorable pictures! lols!

definitely,maybe

I want to watch this movie so much,you know!
Anyone wants to watch this badly too?

And and, not forgetting slam! I want to watch that too lahs.

But i'm afraid by the time i go to catch these two movies, they're no long there.

Waaaaa, damn. Days are getting more and more boring.

School are starting, needa wake early, needa take long journey to reach the damn school.

oh wells.

Bestie! <3

Picture above was taken on saturday (:
There are more, but i'm very lazy to post it up. So, one is enough lahs.

Anyway, i think locking up had created alot of trouble for most of you. Sorry people!

And it's pointless to lock now also lah, arh whatever.

Well, nothing much to blog today. Been sleeping and working for the day. And that's it!

Alright, time to go now.

More pictures will be coming up when i got them all.

byebye now!

conclusion

just, when you realised everyone's hiding and lying.

And that's when everyone's acting so fake.

f'it.

more pain

Saturday again! :) Every saturday is a day to have fun, meeting up and enjoying day for me! Therefore, i met almost all my good friends today! And, i woke up as early as 11am to prepare! Also, thank god that the cramps stopped for the day! Hahas

Well, i met up bestie in the noon for lunch nearby. Then, headed down to Bedok by cab. Was intended to have our singing session there, but unfortunately the ktv was already fully booked by then. So, we've got no choice that we cabbed down to Bugis's top one ktv! :) The very new ktv opposite bugis junction!

I was really impressed once i got into the room. Damn cool inside with some facilities that we didn't see in other ktvs. Haaas, was having fun with her there. But she got to go straight after singing, and it explains that's why we didnt meet for long today. Aiya, there's always another chance! Meeet up soon dearest (:

Then, called up 亲爱的 but she was with ahben. So, met them at ahben's place and also had dinner there! Was really paiseh to stay there for dinner. But still, thanks alot! lol :D After dinner, we played games and stayed there till midnight. Got home, we saw yang on the way. Few hours later, we went out for supper together. Reached home really late. And i'm really tired now!

Had a great day but i'm damn pissed with all the pimples i'm having now!

I needa sleep more when school reopens, my skin are getting worst now!

In additon, excercise is needed too! lol!

:( :( :( :( :( :(

GOODBYE, GOODNIGHT!

Gotta sleep and prepare for work :(

A Random feel.

Well, i know there are something hiding behind. Maybe it's just dont meant to be known by me.

But unfortunately, i think somehow i got it.

I dont know why i felt very affected, very disappointing, very unhappy and also very painful.

I couldn't figure what's in that mind of yours. And i really wish one day, i could see it through.

Despite on how the outcome would be, i will still want to know. I really hate to have sucha feeling inside.

I dont know how to let it out or say it out.

I always telling myself that i dont see a point of you returning, but i'm dying on wanting you back.

This is what i called fucked up feeling. bb,ilusm.

Pain.

Didn't have a good sleep. Keep waking up in between, had a bad cramp while sleeping. This cramp doesn't go away till i took the painkiller. And after stop working, the cramps came back again now. Feeling damn tiring, damn painful. Tsk!

): Sometimes

... i hope you're here with me though you're always not showing much concern

But still, i miss you so.

oh, just fucked up :)

It's another sleepless night yesterday! Friends came over to my place and we played cards all the way! Lost alot, together with my girls. Because we're sharing. lol, very sorry babes. Of cause, it's breakfast after all the games and before sleeping! (:

Well, we'd a great time though it's really tired lah. Hahahas (: Poor girls still have to go work till evening than can sleep. But i know, they definitely wouldn't mind lah. Anyway, we shall meet up soon again alright? Before school starts, before the days got really boring lah! (:

Oh ya, i've got something to blog about lah! Know what, i really hate it when i realised something bad happened once i woke up. It's really annoying to feel so pissed and yet so irritated. I seriously don't understand why do people don't think before they place any judgement? Omg la? Don't you think it's dumb? Tsk, sigh. Use it when you're given a brain. Don't waste it okay! :)

Well, no offence for all the words above. Up to you to judge on what i meant there (:

I hate this life lah. Why do people living on earth needs so handle so much things? Why so many fucked up people around doing sucha unnecessary things? Troublesome matters, troublesome freaks! Leave me outta this!

Oh, before i go. For anyone that concerns, my results sucks like hell :D But aiya, it's predicted. So, don't think i'm not okay. I'm fine lah! cus jj thinks that i'm not okay! lols

P.S : I dont want school, i want peace. Lols :D

sigh.

I hate to think that he's cute
I hate to remember every bits of those memories
I hate to miss him so much
I hate to have the feeling of wanting him back
I hate this outcome.
I hate you for causing this and doing this to me
I hate to jealous of those girls who are close to you
I hate to cry over our ending
I hate to dream of us getting back together
I hate to fail to give you up
I hate to treasure and love you so much
I hate myself for not be able to feel nothing to you
I hate myself for not be able to do what i've promised my friends
I hate myself for being so naive, so stupid, so dumb.
And i hate everything that is happening now.
I don't know why i'm feeling so fucking confusing.